Sometimes there are drawbacks to having friends who are ambitious, smart, and talented. Sometimes I’m afraid that for all the hard work and effort in the world, I may never end up being as accomplished. Sometimes I’m also afraid that I don’t have what it takes, because I burn out in between and my health continues to be up and down, and life doesn’t always work out the way you plan or want.
As someone who wasn’t born in the United States, a lot of the decisions I’ve had to make have been weighted heavily by the legal implications and the financial burden any choice would entail. Amongst all my worries, I also want to know: when can I really just be free to pursue what I want? And in the end, how much am I sure of what I want and how much am I willing to do or give up to get it?