relation

you
patronize me
with words so sharp
they will never lose their sting

against your ideals
i will never measure up
i cannot be better
or worse than you

i am
always searching,
holding desperately
to hopes
ultimately unfulfilled

how
would you know;
claim the authority
when your eyes are glazed?

there is no peace
and invisible is reason
but maybe one day
we'll find relation

October 2004